What a week..

i wish that goodbyes are like sunsets..
it may be a little sad, but still beautiful in any ways..

i dont have voice..

Yow! as you all know im sick..

>.<

and i hate it so much.

and most of all i dont have VOICE.. :'(

i miss my friends.. :'(

gracious... its our second term already.. and actually im a little pressured.

anyways the reason why im posting something on my blog today is to congratulate my singaporean friends.. the 4-SA.. :)

guys,

congratulations to all of you.. :) may you have high grades in your o levels..

I really miss you.. I wish that I will soon have the privilege of going there in singapore and visit you.. :)

thank you for the friendship.. :)

hugs and kisses.. :x

-angela.. :)

LONG DISTANCE!

i love this song..

very much..

Finals, Sembreak,.. :)

Whew,

Finally posted a new one hahah..

Im so busy these past few weeks.. coz its our finals already.. and i need to pass many requirements to be able to get my final grade and enroll..


whoHoo..

We will soon have our semestral break.. awh..

vacation.. hahaha.. and lots of exciting things to do..

:)

wish that all of my high school classmates will come on our reunion "Patintero Sessions"

that would be a nice way of saying hi to them.. :)

aww... Im miss them so much..

horoscope for today..

The Bottom Line

Make careful choices. A mixed bag of events is waiting for you to uncover it.

In Detail

Whether you want to expand your social circle or your career network, you have friends in high places who can help make the connections you need! They won't think you are using them if you call them up and ask them to make an introduction or two for you. In fact, they will love the opportunity to help you meet your goals! Just put yourself in their shoes -- wouldn't it give you a thrill if you knew you had the power to make someone you care about happy?

Source:

friendster.com

hahah.. hmm.. would this really happen?

hhaa..

rain pours hard..

prefinals.

wha... its our prefinal exams tomorrow.. please wish me luck.. T_T

What the heck.?!

Hate this day... Super!

my brain really bleed.. hahaha..

but anyways, i learn something new again.. thanks to my professors.. :)

hahahah,.. so nice to be alive!!

I have donated my blood.. :)

hahah.. Im so happy today.. Coz finally I was able to conquer my fear in needles and in donating blood.. hahah..

The whole experience was so great.. Even y professors, also donated their blood.. Even if they are also scared.. :P

I was very thankful that there are some persons who have been with me through the session.. :)

and those persons are Sir Tjay and my best friend Arman..

haha..

they were the one's that kept me strong and relax..

thanks to them.. most of all to my bestfriend coz he has been with me in that time.. :P

And also to zul, for the great advice and encouragements.. :P thank you..

YabShoO guys.. :P

thats all for now..

-angela now signing Off..

yeah.. Philosophy..

Happiness is an end, since all men deem it to be accompanied with pleasure and not with pain.

-Aristotle, Politics, Book VII

My belief is, not that a good body will by its own excellence, make the soul good; but on the contrary, that a good soul will by its excellence render the body as perfect as it can be.

-Socrates, The Republic, Book III

ang inet..

grabeh sobrang maalinsangan ang araw na ito, hindi ko maexplain..

hmm.. puro download ang ginagawa ko ngaun.. kamusta nman ako?

haha..

sana ilibre ako ng ngpapadownload.. o kaya ipaglaba ako! hahahaah


nakakaabno.. haixt..

un lng para sa araw na ito..

paalam..

hanggang sa muling pagkikita..

ingatan nawa kayo ng DIos.. :)

-angela!

Im so sorry..

hmp... to my best friend..

im so sorry.. i didnt mean it..

im now suffering..

so please...

forgive me..

hai.. pede ba ulit mgtagalog?

Hai naku.. magtatagalog nlng ako ulit.. hahah

hmm... mga 15 mins pa bgo kme bumalik sa skul,..
Ang baet kong estudyante noh?

haixt.. ang sarap kumaen..

aun.. maikli lng ang post ko ngaung araw na to..


kase may balak pa ako mag review..


-un lng

-angela.. :]

tagalog post! pwede? khit ngaun lng?

hay.. nakakapgod na mg english kaya naicpan ko na mgtagalog nalng ako for this post.. ewan ko ba,.. mas kumportable tlga ako sa tgalog.. hahaha


haixt.. prelims nmen khapon.. peo 2 subjects lng ang ntake nmen kc nsuspend na ang class dhil sa bagyong si ISANG.. haixt.. mgdodota sna ako khapon kso naisip ko na umuwe nlng..

grabeh.. badatrip tlaga...


naiinis talaga ako kapag umuulan..

ang lungkot kse ng ambiance..

tpos, feeling ko umiiyak ang langit, bukod dun mputik pa, at madulas ang daan..


hmm.. aun lng ang sentimyento ko ngaun!...


-angela

Sober - kelly Clarkson

And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it's never really over

And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It's never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I'm still standing here
Three months and I'm getting better yeah
Three months and I still am

Three months and it's still harder now
Three months I've been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months

Three months and I'm still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers..


This song really touched my soul, i dont know why but it really break into my heart.. maybe its beacuse of some reasons... and also, maybe Im just tired with being all alone.. for the past 1 month of being in college, I realized something.. Its just it made me more mature..

T_T

preliminary exams is on friday..

got to go and review...


"NO NOT THIS TIME!"

hahaha.. Im kinda sentimental..



-angela-

hahah.. whatever.,.

hahah.. What a heck..?!

Hmm.. What a Heck.,. I just hate this day..

sooo sick

im sick.. so so sick..

Madam President?! whO mE?!

Today was the election of our homeroom class officers.. and also today.. in this very day.. i was elected as the president of the class.. hmm..

actually im overwhelmed by the decisions of my classmates.. but then again, im scared..
coz its actually my first time to be the president.. but then again.. im looking forward in doing so many things,.. and i hope my fellow class officers will also help me and support me..

"lalo na ung VICE PRESIDENT!"

hahah..

im really expecting you man to help me accomplish things.. okay?

Am i making myself clear?


hahahaha

to my classmates..

thanks for the trust.. i will not let you down..


- angela..

madam president?

Favorite videos of the week..

hahahah.. hello there.. though actually no one is reading my blog..

ive been very busy these past few weeks..so im just post some videos that i like..

first are our my videos with my new classmates..





and finally my most favorite video.. hahah..NO BOUNDARIES by kris allen.. :]



thats all thank you.,

-jeus ui angela,
now signing oFf..

August Rush!!! ahahah..

August rush.. i really love this movie.. hmm.. i hope that they would come up with a sequel.. i hope...



here's my most favorite part.. AUGUST RHAPSODY IN C MAJOR hahaha.. enjoy..

music is everywhere all you have to is listen.. :]

this is angela,
now signing oFf..

hmm.. New life as they say..

haha.. yeah.. i now have a new life.. more mature and serious life..

hmm... its been a week already since i got back to school.. by the way im studying at STI college.. and im taking up Bachelor of Science in Information Technology.. haha.. i am a future programmer.. haha.. i wish..

anyways.. im not posting much as i post before, because im very busy studying my lessons.. coz i want to have high grades.. :]

never new that im going to take up this course.. for the past 15 years of my life..

haiszt.. im a bit bored already..

seriously..


haha..


this is angela,
now signing oFf,

till next time..

i have a video to embbed..

its called "UPDATED VERSION OF ME"

haha.. enjoy,



in time.. you wil see.. the updated version of me.. hahaha

what a week..

hahah.. what a tiring but fun week.. always full of surprises.. i have one of a kind professors..
like Mr. Gerald Caybyab.. or what we call him sir tj.. hahah.. and also mam leah, and the others..

hmm.. i have many homeworks.. huh.. i dont want to procrastinate so im doing it already.. hahah.. goody.. so that i can enjoy my other time.. you know, i need to kinda save my time for some important things..


i have new friends.. :P wee...

ooh.. haha.. i have to go..


ill just post something long next time.. :]


hihi...

sayonara,!!!!!

odajji ni.. :]

arigatou gusaimatsu...

.. Start..

the school got started thats why i dont post a lot.. hahah..

ill just post on saturday or sunday.. :)

I wish i could trun back time..

if i would meet a genie...

i will tell him to create a time machine..

so that i could turn back the time..

and go to the most memorable parts of my life..

If and only..

hmm...

back to school?

yeah..

hahaha..

gOod luck to me.. :]

anyways its doesnt matter that much.. i think..

im expecting a very different day tomorrow..

:]

angela,
now signing Off...

:)

yeah.. reminiscing..

me and archelle reminisce the past moments.. haha.. actually we just reminisce by text (sms) :]

and it really took us awhile.. we remember the times when our foreign friends visited us.. uhh.. its so worthwhile.. you know the flashback of memories..
hahah..

also when we remember those things we just laugh..

a special song reminds us of those moments that we shared..

"I'M YOURS!"

haha.. until here,,

this is angela,

signing oFf.. :]

I really Hate rainy days...

hmp.. rainy days has just come.. argh... it really makes me sick..

the surroundings are wet...

anyways, im now suffering from colds.. hahaha,.. get well soon for me,..

kinda hungry already.. :)

bye bye..

xie xie ni,:)

-angela

haha.. its rainy..

haha.. rainy days is here already,.. im expecting to be really sick.. hahaha.. :)

anyways..

i miss my friends.. badly..

haha... IM SICK... :P

haha... im back again.. if the last time is i cried so much.. well today i have a really terrible colds... hmp.. (*sniff*) i will be back to school on june 15.. hhahaha wish me luck on that..


also i have many new friends.. again.. :)

haha.. really nice to have them..

:)

thats all.

this is angela,
now signing oFf.

im back and i cried so much..

i cried because of a japan drama named "one liter of tears" it really made me realized how fortunate i am that im still living in this world, and also made me think that enjoy life to the fullest..

heres a sneak peak.. :)




hope that this story will inspire you to live on.. especially this song that is playing..

this is angela,
now signing oFf.

getting ready for college...

hi to all.. haha.., as you can see i wasnt able to post these past few days.. hahah.. cause i have no time.. quite busy,, Im actually preparing my stuffs and especially myself.. Ill be back to school exactly two weeks from now... And im now entering a new life.. college.. as you might now i just graduated from high school last march 31. I decided to take up Bachelor of Science in Information Technology...

honestly, i have no idea how to start up a new journey again.. cause for sure it will be different this time.. New world, new faces, new journey, new experience, and more mature me.. And another thing that keeps bothering me now is my fear.. Im so scared of what will happen.. Im just thinking of how will i cope up with these new people arond me?? and would it be hard? Actually im a scholar.. so i need to maintain my grades in order to renew it..I need to be a dean's lister.. pressure is killing me already.. *sigh* my life wouldnt be the same as my high school days,,

But one thing's for sure.. that GOD will not let me give up.. I know he will guide me from up above.. and give me strength, guts and the glory to do my very best to reach to the top..

note..:

[to my 4-SA friends.. : gOod luck guys on your mother tounge o lvls on june 1st.. i know you can do it guys.. i believe in you.. give in your best shot.. go go go 4-SA...!!]

this is angela,
now signing off..

saranghamida..!!

Watch this.. ahahaha...

watch this video.. this is a video of my niece clarisse... ahahha... im sure you wll love this.. :P





hahah... enjoy.. :P

Happy Mothers Day..

To my Mama.,

Mom Happy Mothers day to you..

Though sometimes I dont make a point of showing you how much i love you, I really Do..

I also want to thank you for all the love and support you are giving me all the way up to now that im going to college..

:P

I love you very much, and i owe you mY life..


Sincerely yours,

Angela

I love NODAME CANTABILE!!!

I love thiS!!1

whahah... HAvent enroll..

ahh... I havent enroll yet... :P

haha.. rainy day..:)

Not all people can understand the way I am.. Some may hate me while some will love.. But for all of this, I still love the way I am cause I dont want to pretend as someone just to flatter anyone..

As said on my favorite quote,

Its better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.. :)

Book Review..

Today I will post a book review about the book..

"THE ALCHEMIST"

Written by Paulo Coelho.. haha.. I already finish reading it a while ago.. :) the book was so interesting and at the same time very inspiring to people like me that is right now choosing our path.. our what they called on the book "the personal Legend" its really a good book.. and let me share with you a few passage from the book.. "Everything is written in the soul of the world, and there it will stay forever.." another one.. "One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving." I can really tell that Paulo Coelho really did a good job.. I hope that the book will have a sequence.. haha.. like the other books.. And also I can really say that it really leave a big mark on my life.. And it really helped me to decide on what path will i take.. :)

Really works for me..

i hope that you will also read it.. haha..

nice and touching story that you will never forget..


this is angela,
now signing oFf.
:)

i want to learn japanese.. :P

i really wanna know how to write and speak japanese... haha.. kinda frustrated..:P

いろはにほへと(いろはにおえど)	I ro ha ni ho he to (Iro wa nioedo)	Even the blooming flowers
ちりぬるを(ちりぬるを)	chi ri nu ru wo (chirinuru o)	Will eventually fade
わかよたれそ(わがよたれぞ)	wa ka yo ta re so (waga yo tare zo)	Even our world
つねならむ(つねならん)	tsu ne na ra mu (tsune naran)	Is not eternal
うゐのおくやま(ういのおくやま)	u wi no o ku ya ma (ui no okuyama)	The deep mountains of vanity
けふこえて(きょうこえて)	ke fu ko e te (kyō koete)	Cross them today
あさきゆめみし(あさきゆめみじ)	a sa ki yu me mi shi (asaki yume miji)	And superficial dreams
ゑひもせす(えいもせず)	we hi mo se su (ei mo sezu)	Shall no longer delude you.

thats a few lessons i have to learn.. :P

this is angela,
now signing oFf,

SAYONARA TOMADATCHI!! :) I♥yah all..

A passage from the book.. "THE ALCHEMIST"

Hmp.. This passage from the book "THE ALCHEMIST" caught my eyes.. when i was reading the back cover.. Its says.. :

"To Realize one's destiny is a person's only obligation."

hmp... i think that THE ALCHEMIST is a very good book.. I just read a few passages from it.. I havent finish it yet cause somebody is reading it right now.. haha..

i can say that the book is good for decision makings.. haha.. like me.. cause im making a very hard decision.. hahas..

ooh.. have to go..

this is angela,
now singing off.


CIAO!

this is my only one.. one of my favorite song..

argh.. i wish college is as easy as high school..

hum... i wish that college is as easy as high school.. its very entrance exam..!!!

what a life>?!

can somebody help me???

its so hard.. gimme some advice people!!

haha.. i want to swim..

i want to swim to he beach you know!! argh.. its so hot!

thank you jos!

to mr. josiah ho,

thank you very much for chatting with me., yesterday... and for being a such an understanding person.. hahas...

it really made me think of what kind of person you are.. and i guess, even though we havent meet yet, i know that you are a very nice and good person..

i guess thats why you have many friends.. :P

thank you very much.. i really appreciate your respect to my father.. :)


-lovelots,
angela!

i knew i loved you..

hmp.. i fell inlove with song...

hmp..

tears of a broken heart...

i will soonly post my story here on my blog.. haha.. hope that you will be touch by it.. :)

love hurts... ='(

why is love really hurts??? ='(

i cant understand why??? its just breaking my heart and tearing it in to two...!

Slumdog millionaire!

haha... yeah.. slumdog millionaire... i really love this movie!
it actually made me think of how fortunate i am for a having a somehow good life... :P

and having my parents around me..


it also made me realize many things in my life.. and learn to appreciate what god has given you..

haha... what a productive summer for me...

uhm.. yeah im already enjoying my summer vacation.. aahaha...

now why did named this post productive summer ?
haha.. simple. its because im doing so many things..

first on the list is studying how to do a holelistic massage
second... is studying music..
third is going to a summer job..( you know its because i need have money)
4th is to go to a very extravagant vacation with my family and friends,..
5th and final is to have a food and beverage seminar...

as you all know im an aspiring chef... hahas..

i wish to travel asia... and know many delicacies and cuisines of different countries.. and to cook for many people around the globe and put a smile on their faces... thats what i want.. and that will only be possible of god and my family, friends will suport me..

wish me luck and have a good vaction to all of you.. :)

this is angela,
now signing oFf.

i miss this... ='(

this is the video that i made last year for 3-sa o8.. prefferably 4-sa already.. hmp.. i really miss em all.. i wish that i could go to sg someday..

a hot n cold day... makes me sick..

ahrg.... its a rainy and hot day.. and it really makes me sick!

just dance!

what a graduation...

haha... last Tuesday march 31, 2009 is the big day for all of us in 4-1 aguinaldo.. haha.. its our graduation.. yes you read it right.. well... its a big event for us all.. heres some pictures...

Grey's anatomy quotable quotes..

"People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers."

--Dr. Meredith Grey

So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. Eventually feels a lot better than actually.

--Ellen Pompeo as Dr. Meredith Grey

LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE EVER!

this is another passage from the living news and good education's editorial... Its caught my attention so ill be posting it here...

" Yes, certain times are tough, but this is not a reason for is to act beaten and defeated. There is always a bright side to everything that we experience, no matter how hard or painful the situation may be. The person who said 'laughter is the best medicine' certainly knew what he was talking about. If you know how to find humor with any situation that you face, you will certainly find that things get a little lighter and the problem is a lot easier to face because you dont lug around such a heavy burden. In such serious times, learning to laugh and finding joy at the simplest things will surely help.

PEACE OF MIND!

If you were to ask your friend, "What would give you a peace of mind?"

He might tell you, " a vacation in bermuda!" or

"An extra hundred grand would give me peace!," or "A new ferrari would make me content!"

But going to places - and getting stuff- is usually temporary solution.

Peace of mind rarely comes from getting more stuff!

Peace of mind starts with being grateful for what we have right now.

When we are thankful for what we have for the friends we have. and for the things we've got.

We attract more good people and good things!
People who always complain about what they DON'T HAVE, They STUCK.

complainers attract more things to complain About!

It is a law of life
Its hard to explain,
but you can observe it around you.
We get more of what we dwell upon.

"Start being thankful
Be happy with what you have now,
and more will come your way."

Its practical advice.
Every time you say a silent "THANK YOU!"
You become more peaceful - and powerful.


-adapted from:
Living News and Good Education (Features)


its works for me!!! haha... Thats right we should be contented for what we have than seeking for more things that we didnt have.. As said above people who always complain about the things they dont have, THEY STUCK..

haha.. so better not be a complainer... :)

-this is angela,
now signing oFF...


im very excited about our graduation..haha...

haha... another post for this day.. :P

haha.. our graduation will be on march 31, 2009 already but till now it doesnt really sink in tho my mind that we are going to graduate...

The days really gone so fast... I can still remember the very first day that I went to my class... The 4-1 aguinaldo.. my whole year is very good one... my life as a fourth year student in balara is like a roller coaster.. today youre in down but tomorrow youre already in the summit...

Its very fresh in mind the first thing that came up when i was told by my former adviser that i was in four - one... I didnt really expect being in this class.. I was so afraid that time... Afraid of the presure and stuffs that comes with being in this section... But as time passed by I realize that im very fortunate to be in this class... haha.. so many benefits... and so many memories...

if i wasnt in this section maybe i will not study that hard... i will be a weak person, i will not meet so many people... like the 3-SA... :) im very thankful im in this section.. T.T and most of all i will not meet my ever beautiful and smart adviser MS. FEBE D. PABALINAS..

top four one:

thanks guys for all the wonderful things that you showed me and had given me.. to laughter, the sorrow, the joy and the crying you were always there... thanks... especially to freakz... :)

love you guys...

:)

my last week as high school has ended...

haha... these are the pictures of my last week in high school.. others will come up maybe next week or tomorrow i guess.. :P haha... i will really miss this.. T__T

this is angela,
now signing ofF..

i like this song..

Daddy's little girl.. ;(

hah... so tired... :P

hah... :P im super tired these past few days... we had our graduation practices today.. as usual... im kinda bored but definitely happy.. :)

its just im really enjoying my time with my friends and classmates.. haha.. its our last days so its better to really grab the opportunity to be with them...

haha... im a little sad... but happy that finally ill be entering the most crucial part of studying.. (*i think)

(facebook mode for a while)

-that for now..

-angela... :)

saranghye! muwah! (^__^)

monday to wednesday post...!!

here are my post from monday to wednesday..:

monday:

we had our practices for our graduation songs... other than that theres a special event that happened on that day.!! haha.. A tv appearance for all 4-1! thats because of our graduating class valedictorian MS. ANGELIE DELA CRUZ... a local tv network gave her a new laptop.. haha.. were very happy for her... :)

to you angelie,

good work, you really deserve that much happiness and blessings..!!

love you my friend..

tuesday:

we just again practice... we watched our tv appearace.. eat.laugh.live.love..


wednesday..:

we had our graduation rehearsals...:)


thats all thank you..

-angela:)


so xcited..

hmp.. one week to go..

haha.. one week to go and my high school life will be over.. :P
im so excited but at the same time im also sad and scared of what will be my life turn out when im in college already?

hah...time passed by so fast. i cant hardly believe that im graduating already.. anyways im just thinking if i will go with my former classmates to our reunion.? hmp.. coz, i dun feel like swimming these days coz its so hot... :O

maybe i will or i will not...

i want to share with you guys this quote:

"we should always chose the path that we think is the best.."

thats all..

this is angela,
now signing oFf.. :)

ReCo '09

haha,.. I didnt post for some time this week.. why? ahah... first thngs first is we are preparing for our graduation ceremonies in the end of the month.. second is we are busy in doing our requirements.. haha..

in monday we had our reco or recollection, it was a lot of fun and realizing some points that we can use in planning for our future life.. :) and there was a moment when we are doing our reco that made me really think of what really lies ahead after my high school? how shall i start? But theres this quote that made a big mark in me...

"DESTINY, is not a matter of CHANCE..its a matter of CHOICE... "

i realized that you are the one who make your destiny... Because it depends on your choice... there are only two choices... the good and the bad.. so its up to you to decide whats best for you and what love doing the most,... :)

thats all for now...

this is angela,
now signing off..

One lesson learned: True love can wait..

hmp.. yeah, today i realized and learn that true love can really wait.. You just have to wait and to be patient.. Because i believe god will provide that one person for you.. And you have your own fate.. If its your fate, its your fate.. no one can hinder you from it... you know.. hahas..

Another one, you dont have to find that person.. coz he or she will come..

thats all for today.. :)

this is angela,
now signing off..

quotable quote...

"It isn't life that weighs us down,
Its the way we carry it."

nthng more, nthng less...

thats all..

haha..birthday bash,

haha,i thank the people who really made me happy in my birthday last wednesday..to my bestfriends..kim and iona,. to zulkranain.. and my family...

i love yah ...haha...

you really made me happy..

also to all of my classmates in 4-1 my teachers...and many more..of course to god..cause he gave me another year in my life.. ahah..

thats all..

this is angela,
now signing off..

happy burthday...

haha... Happy birthday to me..:)

thats all.. i can say up to this timee..

whatever?

Im doing many things, im stressed out.. but still i push my self to the limit of always smilling though i experience some difficulites nowadays..

im just out of this world...

huh... im bored.. and tired.. i need a break...

I wish that I could be away from here just for a week... indulge in paradise, shop til i drop... and many more things that i always want to experience..

anyways.. my birthday is coming up..

happy birthday to me...:)

-this is angela,
now signing oFf..

haha...

nothing to post.. im bored!!!

nothing much, nothing less...

"Life can be happier & less stressful if we remember one simple thought:
We can't have sll that we desire, but GOD will give us all that we deserve..."

that all for now.. Im kinda busy..:)

-this is angela,
now signing OFf..

whahaha... I got my cellphone..

hahaha... My aunt gave me my cellphone yesterday.. Though its not a camera phone I really apreaciate it... Cause I know It came from the heart... (aww... T__T)

anyways... we are only weeks away from the most awaited moment of 4-1 aguinaldo... The GRADUATION.. I am really excited... Oh i mean all of us.. :) hope that it will be a good one.. Im so stressed out today... You know why? because of the deadlines and so many works, most of all is the pressure to finish it.. XP..

oh.. thats all for today..:)

this is angela,
now signing oFf..

arigatou... itsumo odajji ni...

Birthday Gift..:)

haha.. Im so happy today...because my auntie from Switzerland sent me a new cellphone.. goody...! Thats for my birthday.. whohoo.... :)

anyways.. Nothing special happend today... Cause I just got bored...


thats all for now..

this is angela,
now Signign oFf.

wHaT a DaY..

Yeah.. what a day.. you know my day is so bad.. Im very bored.. and what else??? uhm... Yeah... I just did my assignments, requirements, and whatsover... Also our adviser just announced the time of our graduation.. She said the program will start at 9:00 but we need to be at the venue at 7:30..haha so early.. I'm still sleeping that time.. :) but then I have to be there or else.. I will be out in the ceremony..

Anyways.. my birthday is coming up.. and im vry excited in the presents.. haha... I have no further plans for that day.. My birthday is on march 11, and thats on wednesday.. We dont have classes on that day, cause the second year student will be having their NAtional Achivement Test.. :)

so thats all for today..

-this is angela,
now signing oFf..

itch liebe dich evryone..:)

You Raised me up...

You raised me up..

When I am down and Oh my soul so weary..
When troubles come and my heart burdens me.
And I am still waiting here in silence..
Until you come and sit awhile with me..

You raised me up so I can stand on mountains.
You reaised me up to walk on stormy seas..
I am strong when I am on your shoulders..
You raised me up to more than I can be...

You raised me up to... more than I can be...

I love this song..:)
It makes me really feel that God is always there guiding me through..:)

thats all for today..

this is angela,
now signing oFf..

A great passage..

Pride, if renounced, makes one agreeable, anger, if renounced brings no regret; desire, if renounced will make one rich; Avarice, if renounced brings happiness. True tranquility is of the heart. Mercy may be defined as wishing happiness to all creatures. Ignorance is not knowing one's duties wickednes consists in speaking ill of others..

Path is what great one have trod when one looks for it one will not find it by study of scriptures or arguments, which are contradictory and conflicting..

The charity is done in one's lifetime..

- from the story Hundred Questions. From Mahabrata. Translated by R.N. Narayan

no idea what to post..

haha.. yeah.. no idea what to post today.. its just I would say that Im missing so many people.. nowadays.. I really really miss em..

:)

-this is angela,
now signing oFf..

Food, food and more food...

These are the food that Im really dying too eat these past few days.. haha

NO 1 on the list is my all time favorite adobo.. Uhm.. Sarap (Good..)

no 2 is Char kOay TeOw.. uhm.. Spicy hot...

No 3 my favorite part of the meal.. Dessert.. Vanilla Ice Cream.. UHm..

haha.. that's all for today/..

this is angela,

now signing oFf.

Singaporean Food Madness...

haha.. Like my title I am really addicted in eating some singaporean food these past 3 days.. God.. its so good.. Like no other food in this world could take its place... One of my current favorite at the KAI- FAN singaporean resto is the Char Koay Teow.. it is really good. It has this authentic flavor with a kick of spicy - ness...:) haha...

I wish that I could try these following days Nasi goreng.. and the other delicacies there... haha... Uhm.. im kinda busy... but i really find time to eat.. haha..

thats all for now..

I will post some pictures in the next few days..

this is angela,

now signing oFf..

I ate Singaporean Cuisine Food..

Today..:

Me, Jayson, Jovic and PAul John decided to eat some singaporean Cuisine food.. of course for a change.,,,

We found this Singaporean Resto near us.. It is named Kai-Fhan...(cute name..) We all ordered noodles.. (I dont remember the names xcept mine).. It is delicious and at the same time I think its healthy too..:)uhm.. yeah.. If i find some time i will take a picture of that said resto..

you know that time that we order Jayson remember our singaporean friends.. You know we wish that were with them enjoying every bite of that delicious and mouth watering meal. heheha.. too bad..:)

thats all for today..

this is angela,
now signing oFf..

wo ai ni..

My Heart... ♥♥♥

Paramore - My Heart lyrics

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I’ve fallen down and I can’t do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?
Sing us a song and we’ll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
I am nothing now and it’s been so long
Since I’ve heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening.
Sing us a song and we’ll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours(My heart, it beats for you)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don’t go now, please don’t fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don’t go now, please don’t fade away)
(Please don’t go now, please don’t fade away)
My heart is yours(Please don’t go now, please don’t fade away)
My heart is yours(Please don’t go, please don’t fade away)
(Please don’t go now, please don’t fade away)
My heart is..

Quotable Quotes..

"Its better to be hate for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.."

- Ms. Febe Pabalinas
Adviser, IV-1 Aguinaldo/Math Teacher

You know why I really like this quote that our adviser told us? Its because it really applies to everybody's life..

She's right.. Its better to be hated because you are only being true to your self..Than to be loved for what you are not or just pretending to be someone else.. right?

just be true to yourself... And I know people will love you..:)

nothing else..

:)

this is angela,
now signing oFf..

Arigatou, odajji ni.. :)

haha.. past day posts

Sunday:

I took an entrance test at the polytechnic university of the philippines.. The test is consisted by language (english and Filipino) General Information, Science, Numerical Ability & Non verbal ability or abstract reasoning. The test lasted for 2 hours. After that I ate some fried noodles along our way home..

Monday:

My friends, other classmates and I had our open forum or bonding sessions.. Uhm, Yeah we talked about our problems and other issues about our lives. It was fun, knowing every one is there listening to you..


Tuesday:

We dont have classes today cause it is the MOCk test of the 2nd year for NAT (National Achievement Test) on march 11 which is my birthday... Also that day we had our outreach program or community service at kaingin 1. we had so much fun but we got tired. The reasons are the family that we are supposed to help is not home so me and our group decided to just find a new family to be our recipient ...We searched all over the place we went up and down and to the remote areas there.. It was really a fun but tiring experience. we were able to search for families that is poor or less fortunate.. The name of the father of the head of the house is Rey.. he has 3 kids and all of them is not schooling..his wife is theone who works for the family cause she is the only one in the family that finished high school.,. i think.. Then he cannot teachhis childrens because he, himself is a "no read, no write person.." after that experience i realized that were fortunate enough that we can go to school and eat 3 times a day and has a good shelter.. I really felt good after the outreached program.. though as i said it was really tiring.,.:P at least i enjoyed every part of it.. we will also clean the surroundings at our little neighborhod..:) wish us luck..

Today:

we had our annual graduation picture.. :) i wish it will turn out well.. i will post it when i get it..:) uhm.. other things are we also had our class open forum for our values time.. hehe... thats all for today... many post already.. :)

this is angela,
now signing Off.


odajji ni...

happy hearts day!

happy hearts day to all of you..

i love you all..

muwah...

-love

angela..

Graduation Date trasferred..

ooh... The date of the graduation is trasferred from march 17 to march 31.. and i hate that decision..

because we all want to have a early graduation for us to enjoy the vacation.. much longer and still we have plans to do...

anyways..

HAppy hearts day to all of you..

:) muwah..

i love you in different languages:

jet aime
te amo..
watashiwa
ana tao
aishtemashu
ich liebe dich..
iniibig kita
gwa ai di..

may you have a great valentine...:)

Happy Heart's Day!

haha...Happy heart's Day to everyone in the world..

:)

today:

We had our activity in Values today..me and our classmates had a very interesting activity..:)

We gave each other a heart with a letter and a lollipop with it.. and opened up our feelings..

it was great.. knowing that in march we will graduate..:)

that's all for today...

:)

this is angela,
now signing oFf...

jet aime..

MEMORY..

Memory, indeed, serves as the medium through which a personal history is RECONSTRUCTED..

no more questions..

this is angela,

now signing OFf.

Uhm..I realized something..

wha.. Yeah I realized something.. :)
These are the things that I realized..

1. Dream..
2. Commitment..
3. Ambition..and Intelligence
4.Success...
5. Most of all GOD..

reasons..:
1. I need to have and realize my dreams..
2. I need to have a commitment to make things much simpler..
3. Ambition.. very important.. Like what they said.. :"Intelligence without ambition is a bird without wings."
4. Success.. I need to have success in everything that I do.
5. GOD.. most important.. coz he always make me strong in times that I need help..:)

hehe..

that's all for now..

to Zul of 4-SB '08:

thanks for linking me..:)

this is angela,
now signing Off..

Nunca te olvi dere..

will be watching a play..

Today our whole class while watch a play at the university of the philippines theather...:) I'm so excited about it.. beacuse i will watch a Zarzuela.. weehee... And that's for FREE..

omg...the name of the play is "Paglipas ng Dilim" (the fading of the dark)... anyways.. I hope that I will enjoy this show and never get bored..

hehe..

this is angela,
ow signing oFf...

Practicing the Graduation Song..

haha... we already practiced our graduation song today... uhm, we are all kinda excited for our graduation day to come... Then i realized we just have 2-3 weeks to stay as a high school student.. uh... :)



But then were glad thay we surpased the 4 consequitive years of high school life.. and now Balara High School will stay in our hearts and minds as our second home and our beloved alma matter... T__T ..



and after some year from now I will just reminicse the moments that we had spent here...



to BATCH '08 - '09....



HAPPY GRADUATION...







This is angela,

now signing OFf.

Hate Sin and Cosine.. haha...

Haha... like what I said at the title... haha.. Actually I'm so frustrated.
Frustrated in a way.. and for a very valid reason.. I HATE SIN AND COSINE... hehe... yeah.. thats's the reason behind it.. since i was in the kindergarten stage of my life really hated math.. that's why i grew up with math as my weakness... haha... funny..:)

that's all..

uhm.. if you can offer me a tutorials in sin and cosine lessons... please... email me.. hhaha..:)

i would be really happy if you did..:)


this is angela,
now signing oFf.

love yah..

muwah..

few weeks away...

haha.. Im very excited.. we are now few weeks away from our graduation... our graduation will be on march 17, 2009... haha... many preparations to do...

like:

clearance on each subject teacher...

and requirements..

hehehe...

also.. i have a big problem about the fees that im going to pay..like miscelleneous fee, pta fee, and most of all is graduatio fee that will sum up i think to 1,000 pesos of more... ahaha... im going crazy bout these matters.. :(

haha.. i know god will give me strength to solve that problems up..


this is angela,
now signing off..

hmp.. nice day..

nice day... haha... i just love this day...

uhm.. its the birthday of my dad...

haha.. this video is for you..



i love so much thank you...:)

youre the best dad in the world...


:)

love,
angela..

wlang tawiran... haha... tagalog..??

Walang Tawiran;

Nakamamatay!

“ Napakamakapangyarihan ng isang writer, sa pamamagitan ng pagsusulat nagagawa niyang patigilin ang dyip. Kaya niyang pabuhusin ang ulan. Maaari niyang hulihin ang mga corrupt na opisyal ng gobyerno.At kaya niyang tuluyang burahin ang kahirapan sa bansa.”

- Ricky Lee-

Sa isang magalaw, mausok, masikip, at nakakaantok na kahong tumatakbo, natagpuan ko ang aking sarili. Hindi ko hinahanap ang sarili ko at kaylan man ay hindi niya ako pinagtaguan, basta natagpuan ko siya. Huwag ka nang makialam. Kwento ko ito. Nakita ko ang aking sarili na pinapanood ang bawat taong kasabay ko sa kinaroroonan ko ngayon. Sa aking pagmamasid sa kanila, nauwi ako sa isang mahirap at nakababagot na gawaing pagiisip. Kung iniisip niyo na madali lang naman ang magisip, muli niyong isipin at isipin pang muli. Ikaw kaya ang magisip ng isang buong kwento na pupuno sa dalawampung pahina ng puting papel. At aking naalala ang deadline ng pasahan ng kwento. Oh! may gulay…, wala pa akong nauumpisahan. At muli kong pinagmasdan ang mga pagmumukha ng mga pasahero. Hindi dahil sa ayokong alalahanin na pasahan na ng kwento sa retorika, kundi ako’y talagang naniniwala at mataas ang aking pag asa na makikita ko ang kasagutan sa aking problema sa pamamagitan ng pagmamasid sa kanila. “Walang imposible”, sabi nga sa wish ko lang, isang programa sa isang istasyon. “o..GMA7 na may bababa ba diyan?”. Naalimpungatan ako sa sigaw ni manong drayber. Whatta coincidence!, ang istasyong nasa isip ko sakto sa kinaroroonan ko ngayon. Wala namang bumaba kaya ako’y muling nahulog sa isang malalim na pagiisip.

Nakakatuwa namang isipin na sa bawat taong nasa loob ng tumatakbong kahong iyon, iba’t ibang klase ng kwento ang natatago. Magkakasama kami ngunit hindi magkakakilala. Kung paanong may sarili akong buhay na pinoproblema, gayon din sila. Hindi ko alam ang kwento ng buhay nila tulad ng hindi nila pagkaalam sa kwento ng buhay ko. Walang koneksyon. Tanging ang abutan lang ng pamasahe ang nakapaguugnay sa amin. Ang pamasahe, lagi na lang ang pamasahe. Ang pamasahe na walang kamalay malay. Ang pamasahe na wala namang naging kasalanan kundi ang maging dahilan ng paghahanap buhay.

“Miss, pwedeng tumabi?” napalingon ako sa pinanggalingan ng boses. Bumilis ang tibok ng aking puso. Nalaglag ang aking panga. Halos mawalan ako ng ulirat sa aking pagmamalabis.”Ang gwapo”, yun na lang ang aking nasambit.

“Hoy miss! pausog...uupo ako.” yun pala ang sinabi ng pasaherong kakasakay lang. Napalingon ako sa iba pang pasahero. Sikip na pala at sa aking tabi na lang ang natitirang bakante. Npahiya naman ako pero balik na ulit sa pagiisip. Hindi ko na sila pinansin. Ganyan talaga ang buhay, minsan kinakailangang madapa para matutunang bumangon. Kung ano man ang koneksyon ng mga pariralang ito sa pangyayari ay lubos akong nagpapasalamat sa nagteks nito sa akin, sapagkat doon ko lang napansin na kailangan ko ng bumaba. Nasa philcoa na pala ako. Makakauwi na rin sa wakas. At nakauwi naman ako ng ligtas. Salamat kay Senator Villar na sumagot sa aking pamasahe. Sabi nga niya, “ang nagpapakahirap, hindi na dapat pinahihirapan”. Ang sabi ko naman, ang nagpapakahirap, sila na lang. Bakit ko pa isasali ang sarili ko? Ano ako hilo? Sino bang may gustong mahirapan?

Ayon nga sa isang pelikula,” ang batang masipag paglaki pagod”. Hindi man ako ganoon kasipag subalit pagod na ako kaya mas pinili kong mahimlay na lang sa higaan sapagkat bukas panibagong hamon na naman ang aking kakaharapin. Dahil bukas..... bukas..... bukas luluhod ang mga tala. At ako’y nakatulog katabi ang litrato ng aking idol na si Sharon Cuneta.

Panibagong umaga na naman para sa akin. Bagong pagsubok na kakaharapin[parang fear factor lang ah]. Tulad ng nakagawian, papasok ako sa Unibersidad na napili ko. Ang Paaralang Utak ang Puhunan. Tama! utakan lang talaga yan. Kung gusto mo magsurvive, paganahin mo paminsan minsan ang kapirasong laman sa ulo mo. Survival of the fittest ang pagaaral sa eskwelahan ko. Matira matibay ika nga. Muli sumakay na naman ako sa kahong nagdudulot ng polusyon sa ating bayan. Ang dami nila. Kung saan saan sila patungo subalit tila kulang pa rin sila sa dami ng mga taong nag-aabang upang dito’y makasakay.

Matapos ang ilang dekada, graduate na ako, di pa din ako makasakay.[joke lang] Naiinip lang ako kaya naalala ko ang sinasabi ng isa naming propesor kapag mabagal kaming sumagot sa klase. At sa wakas, may nahabag din at ako’y pinasakay.

Uyyy .. mga bagong mukha. May kulot, may tuwid, may matangkad at maliit, may bata at mayroon din namang malapit ng mangapit bahay sa kabilang buhay. Pero iba-iba man sila ng kasarian at kalagayang pisikal, lahat sila pare-pareho lang. Lahat sila kapareho ko din na humahanap ng pag-asa sa buhay. Nagmamadali kaya’t tinatangkilik ang kahong tumatakbo para makarating sa paroroonan.

Pagkaraan ng ilang minuto ng byahe, nakarating na ako sa aking patutunguhan. Katulad ng dati, muli kong makakasama ang mga taong naging parte na ng aking buhay. Ang buhay kolehiyo. Ang buhay na masasabing ilang hibla na lang ang pagitan sa reyalidad ng mundo. Sa pagiging kolehiyo, nariyan ang tila imahen ng isang bansa. Mga nangangwartang propesor na parang corrupt na senador. Mga estudyanteng bumabayad para sa marka na kawangis ng mga mayayamang binabayaran ang hustisya. Mga estudyante na patuloy na kinakawawa ng kapwa estudyante na nakaaangat sa buhay. Parang mga mamamayan, diskriminasyon sa pagitan ng mga hampas lupa at ng mga taga alta sociedad. At mga estudyante at mga empleyado na patuloy na nangangarap na makapagtapos at di mawalan ng trabaho. Sila naman ang halimbawa ng mga mamamayan na patuloy na umaasa na umangat sa pagkalugmok sa kahirapan. May pag asa pa nga kaya?

Dumating ako sa kwarto na karaniwang pinagdadausan ng klase. Tulad ng dati, napaaga na naman ako sa pagdating kaya naisip ko na isang magandang pagkakataon ito upang umpisahan ang aking kwento sa retorika. Mahaba haba ding sulatan ito. Bagaman tinutukso ako ni katamaran upang hwag na munang gawin ang kwento, naisip ko na sayang ang oras. Kung maaari ko namang gawin ngayon, bakit ko ipagpapabukas pa. Kaya natalo na naman ng pwersa ng kabutihan ang kampon ng kasamaan dahil kumuha na ako ng papel at panulat at inumpisahan ang aking obra maestra(nga ba?).

Sa isang malayong kapuluan ng Sta.Mesa, Maynila, sa lugar na malapit sa ilog Pasig, bandang silanganan ng bansang pinangalanan ng unang nakasumpong dito na si Dante Guevarra, na P-U-Pinas, naninirahan ang tribu ng mga Inglisero. Mula ang tribung ito sa lahing kung tawagin ay P-U-Pyan. Ang nasabing tribu ang itinalaga ng kanilang mga ninuno upang ipaglaban ang wikang Ingles laban sa mga mapang-api at mapagmataas na mga Tagalog.

Mula pa sa simula ay sinasabing magkalaban na ang mga Inglisero at mga Tagalog. Ayon sa kwento ng isang dekana, nagumpisa daw diumano ang tunggalian sa isang patimpalak. Sa nasabing patimpalak pinagdebatihan kung kanino nga bang wika ang higit na dapat na mamayani. Ang mananalo ang tatanghaling kagalang galang na tribu at paglilingkuran ng matatalo. Malakas ang loob ng bawat panig sa paniniwalang mas mahalaga ang kanilang wika. Syempre. bawat isa’y may punto at argumentong inihain. Ayon sa tribung Inglisero, dapat silang manalo dahil higit silang matalino at magagandang bumigkas ng salita. Hindi nagpahuli ang mga Tagalog na umapelang higit sila sa yaman ng wika at katunayan ang palagiang pagkakaimbento ng mga bagong salita. Masyado daw nahirapan ang mga huwes ayon kay dekana, ayun pala’y isa rin sya sa mga ito[haha]. Muling nangatwiran ang una na ang mga ninuno diumano nila na mga Ingles ay mga bayaning nagtanggol sa bayan. Di nagpahuli ang huli na nagsabing mas bayani sila sapagkat mga ninuno nila ang nagmamay ari ng lupain. Talagang may pagkamatapobre ang mga Tagalog sapagkat wala namang koneksyon ang lupain sa wika,pero ito ay pananaw ko na lamang bilang writer nitong kwento. Wala namang usapan na bawal akong sumingit sa kwento ni dekana di ba?[tawa ulit] Balik sa istorya.

Ayaw magpatalo ng bawat isa. Magkabilang panig ay makikita ang katalinuhan at napaninindiganan na mahalaga ang wika nila.Kaya’t napagpasyahan na lamang daw ng mga huwes na itigil na ang patimpalak dahil baka mauwi lang sa pagkakawatak watak ng lahi. Bawat isa nama’y parehong may punto at mahalaga kahit magkaibang wika pa sila. Bakit pa nga naman pagtatalunan sa halip na magkasundo na lang ang dalawang tribu. At doon natapos ang patimpalak ngunit hindi ang pagpupuyos ng damdamin ng tribung tagalog laban sa kabilang tribu. Hindi nalimutan ng mga tagalog ang pangyayari. Hindi nila kayang tanggapin na pantay lang sila ng mga Inglisero. Naniniwala sila na higit sila sa ibang tribu. Ang pagtatapos ng patimpalak ay naging simula ng lalong mahigpit na laban ng dalawang tribu.

At doon tinapos ni dekana ang kwento kasabay ng paghihikab. Kaya’t nagpaalam na siya sa mga batang Inglesero para matulog. Masyado na daw kasi siyang matanda para tumagal sa mahabang kwentuhan. Makaalis ang dekana nagsitakbuhan ang bata sa kanilang mga magulang na hari at reyna pala ng tribu. Mga anak pala sila nina reyna Cza-cza at haring Glenn. Naalala ko tuloy nung babago pa lang nagliligawan ang mga batang hari at reyna. Hindi niyo naitatanong eh dikit kame ng reyna kaya naikwento niya sa akin ang lovestory nila ng hari. Narito’t subaybayan niyo ang kwentong ikinuwento na ay ikukwento ko pa.

Naglalakad daw noon ang binatang si Glenn para bumili ng paborito niyang puding ng masilayan niyang paparating ang mga dota warriors. Ang mga dota warriors ay ang mga kawal ng hari na naatasang magbantay sa prinsesa. Galit si Glenn sa mga ito sapagkat ang mga ito daw ang dahilan kung bakit nasira ang ipod niya. Close pala sila dati kaya nakakahiram sila ng ipod sa kaniya. Inabangan diumano nitong si Glenn ang mga dota warriors upang puksain. Pinlano niyang barilin ng pellet gun upang mamatay na ang mga ito.Subalit ang plano niya ay hindi natupad. Sa hulihan ng kanyang mga kaaway ay mayroon palang magandang dilag at ito ay lubos na bumighani sa kaniyang puso. Ang magandang dilag na ito ay nagngangalang Cza-cza,ang prinsesa. Sa labis na paghanga ni Glenn sa prinsesa,nagdulot ito upang mapatid siya sa malaking bato at mahulog sa lagoon. Dahil sa nangyari, napansin siya ng prinsesa. Gandang estratehiya ano?. Di pa nagsasalita napansin na agad siya ni Cza-cza.Lupet talaga ni Glenn! astig!

Dahil sa kabutihan ng puso ng prinsesa, inutusan niya ang mga dota warriors para tulungan si Glenn. Dinala niya ang kawawang binata sa palasyo upang gamutin ang mga sugat na natamo niya. Sa pangyayaring ito hindi lamang paghanga angnadarama ni Glenn para sa dalaga, kundi pagibig. Dahil sa pag ibig na ito ipinangako niya sa sarili na oras na gumaling siya liligawan niya ang dalaga, para hindi na daw siya emo. Ang hindi niya alam ay mahal na din siya ng prinsesa.[napakaromantiko] Mabilis naman na gumaling ang binata dahil na rin siguro sa haplos ng pagmamahal ng prinsesa. Ikaw nga naman ang alagaan ng taong iyong minamahal,kung hindi pa naman bumilis ang paggaling.Matapos siyang gumaling araw araw na ang pagdalaw niya sa prinsesa. Ngunit hindi lang pala mga dota warriors ang kontrabida sa buhay niya.....

Isang araw sa pagdalaw niya sa prinsesa napansin niyang matamlay ito. Dahil tsismoso siya tinanong niya dito ang dahilan. Ang kasagutan ay talagang dumurog sa puso niya. Gusto niyo malaman?Tsismoso din pala kayo...(peace!) eto na... tantananan...! Umalis na pala ang magtitinda ng puding sa tapat ng palasyo. Labis itong ikinalungkot ng dalawa pareho pala nilang paborito ang puding.(ang sweet) Dahil sa kalungkutan naging sandalan nila ang isat isa... At yun ang simula ng kanilang kacornihan(bitter =() Biro lang po. Ang totoo masaya ako para sa kanila. Naging maganda ang pagsasama ng dalawa. Nagustuhan siya ng amang hari dahil sa pareho silang mahilig maglaro ng crazy kart. Gayon din ang reyna na matagal na pala niyang friend sa friendster kaya wala na din problema.

Makalipas ang ilang linggo, ikinasal na nga sila. Nagkaroon ng bonggang bonggang kasalan sa palasyo. At pagkaraan ng ilang buwan nanganak si Cza-cza ng quadruplets. Masayang masaya ang lahat sa palasyo. Ako din masaya sa kinalabasan ng loves story nila. Sino nga ba ako dito sa istorya na ito? Para sa inyong kaalaman kahit papaano ay may nagawa rin naman ako dito ano.. Bukod sa pagiging may akda nitong kwento(secret lang ha) ako din ang pinakamatapat na tagapagsilbi sa palasyo, kaya hwag na kayo magtaka kung bakit alam ko mga istorya nila.Kaya kung may gusto pa kayo malaman tanong niyo saken ieedit ko itong istorya ko. Yun nga palang tindahan ng puding sakaling paborito niyo din ito hanapin niyo lang ang Pan de Pidro. Masarap ang puding nila.(nagpromote..haha)

“Hoy Jen! natutulog ka na naman..” mula sa boses na nagpagising sa aking nangangarap na diwa. Si Dawn pala yun. “Asan si prinsesa Cza-cza at haring Glenn?” tila nanaginip pa na sambit ko. “Anong hari hari at reyna ka dyan? Glenn at Czarina,oo may kaklase tayo na ganon pero hindi sila hari at reyna.. nangangarap ka na naman..” natatawa man ay tila naiintindihan na niya ako. Siguro nga maswerte ako sa pagkakaroon ng mga kaibigan na tulad nila na nasasanay na sa ugali ko. “ah.. ganon ba? nananaginip lang pala ako... ha’ay...” muli kong saad. “Ano? ewan ko sayo! tapos mo na ba yung kwento na sinusulat mo para sa retorika?”. Nagulantang ako sa sinabi niyang iyon. Ang alam ko nagsusulat ako kanina nakatulog na pala ako. Patay wala pa akong nasusulat. Pasahan na nga pala nun bukas. Dali dali akong tumakbo sa computer shop at minadali ang paggawa nito. Salamat sa panaginip na iyon na naging pampahaba din dito. Salamat na din sa aking mga sponsors tulad ni Vicky belo at Dr. Calayan na naginspired sa akin na sumulat.(charing!)

Pero di pa ako nagpapaalam tulad ng mga t.v. shows na huli ang pagbati, ay di ko yun ugali. Mahaba pa po ito. Huwag kayo magalala bawal ang short cut dito eh. Pahabaan po ito ng kwento. Alang alang po sa grades pagtyagaan niyo na ako. Narito ang karugtong na istorya.

Matapos ang aking araw sa unibersidad, oras na upang muli akong sumakay sa kahong tumatakbo. Uwian na iyon kaya isa na naman ako sa magiging masugid na taga abang ng masasakyan. Sabayan pa ng sigaw ng mga barker ang gutom ko, nakakapaginit talaga ng ulo ang maghintay. Agaw-agawan ang mga estudyante para makaupo. Mero namang ilang mapili talaga,gusto pa yata ng disgrasya. Bakit ko nasabi? Meron kasing mga sasakyan dito sa stop and shop na kung tawagin ay patok. Mga kaskaserong drayber na nakakabali na ng buto ng mga pasahero. Minsan ko silang nasakyan, ilang araw din na masaklit ang buong katawan ko.

Sa aking pag-aabang na iyon, naisip ko ang pagtangkilik pala sa mga pampasaherong sasakyang iyon, parang pagaasawa. Pili ng pili hanggang sa huli pangit na ang matitira. No choice kana.. masasabi mo na lang, “last trip na” kaya tatangkilikin mo na din kahit na may pagsisisi. Meron din naman na ayaw talagang tigilan ng sasakyan. Sila naman ang mga tumatandang binata at dalaga. Oh di ba may konek?

Dahil hindi naman ako mapili kaya ang tumapat sa akin..agad kong sinakyan,pagod na kasi ako. Para ding pagmamahal ko, agad ko siya minahal noon kaya unti unti na din akong napapagod.Ha’ayyyy.... nakakainis kasi bakit ba walang permanente sa mundo kundi pagbabago, ayan tuloy pati ang kwento ko nahahaluan ng kadramahan. Balik sa istorya.

Nakauwi na naman ako ng ligtas.. Ako’y natulog......natulog...... natulog...... at natulog....... natulog nga ako eh, wag ka magexpect na may istorya sa puntong ito. Tulog po ang may akda, bawal maistorbo.Bilin nga sa akin ng mga magulang ko, wag mong abalahin ang natutulog,tanda din yan ng paggalang.

At ako’y nagising at nagkwentong muli....

Umagang kayganda para sa akin. Walang pasok kaya naisipan ko munang magteks. Isa din kase akong adik sa teks. Siguro kasi yun ang uso ngayon sa mga kabataan na tulad ko. Karamihan nga sa gawain at libangang ito nakakahanap ng mamahalin. Hindi naman masama, kasi meron naman nagtatagumpay kahit na sa ganoon nga nagsimula.At meron din naman na hindi nagtatagal. Nasa nagdadala na rin siguro iyon. Mali man o tama, naiisip pa nga ba iyon ng mga nagmamahalan? Di ba may kasabihan nga tayo, “ Ang pagibig pagpumasok sa puso ninoman, hahamakin ang lahat masunod lamang”. Ngayon, Muli kong itatanong, may mali at tama pa ba pag nagmamahal ka na?

Hindi ko pa man nararamdaman ang magkanobyo, pero base sa mga kwento sa akin, parang naranasan ko na din. Masarap at masaya daw sa una. May kilig at tila ba wala ng makapaghihiwalay. Ngunit sa pagdaan ng panahon, unti-unting maglalaho lahat ng tamis. Lahat ng saya ay mapapalitan ng sobrang kalungkutan. Kalungkutan na parang walang katapusan pero di rin naman magtatagal. Kaya para sa akin, parte na talaga ng pagibig ang sakit. Kung walang sakit, walang pagibig. Di ba kaya nga tayo natutong bumangon kasi naranasan nating madapa. Kung hindi mo naranasan, hindi mo matututunan. Bilang paglalahat, sa pamamagitan ng sakit at pagkabigo, dun tayo magiging mas matalino at mabuting tao.

Sa mundo ko ngayon, madaming nagbago di tulad noong nasa highschool pa lamang ako. Noon, may mga bagay na di ko naiintindihan kaya hindi ko pinapansin. Hindi pala dapat ganoon. Ngayong kolehiyo, lahat ng bagay na di mo maintindihan, di mo maaaring hindi na lang pansinin,kinakailangan mo ng gumamit ng pag aanalisa at malawak na pang unawa. Maraming mga bagay na komplikado pero magegets mo rin naman sa pagtagal. Ang buhay paikot ikot lang, maaaring ang mga nangyari sayo mangyari rin sa iba o kaya vice versa. Kaya nga nasabi kong di mo dapat pagpaliban na lang ang pangyayari na di mo makuha kaagad ang ibig sabihin. [may matututunan din pala dito sa kwento ko kahit pano]

Tapos na ang weekends, kelangan na naman sumabak sa gera ng pagaaral. Pasukan na ulit kaya maaga akong gumising. Puyat man ako sa mga gawain sa skul na dapat kong tapusin, kailangan bumangon. Matapos ang ilang seremonyas, umalis na ako ng bahay.

Naglalakad ako noon papunta sa sakayan ng tricycle. Maya maya’y may tumigil na tricycle sa tapat ko at ako’y pinasakay na. Doon din pala ang punta sa pupuntahan ko, sayang nga naman ang pamasahe. Pagpasok ko sa loob.....

“Hi! anong pangalan mo?”,sang magaan at masayang tinig na nanggaling sa taong nasa loob ng tricycle. Napalingon ako sa pinagmulan ng tinig, napangiti ako. “Ako si Jen, ikaw anong pangalan mo?” tugon ko sa kanya. “ Ako si Thomas” nakangiti ding sabi ng bago kong kakilala. Uyy bagong pagibig ba ito? “Ilang taon ka na?” muling tanong niya sa akin. Nagaalangan man sapagkat tila interesadong interesado siya sa pagkatao ko, sinagot ko siya ng “ 17 lang”.. marami pang tanong ang namagitan sa amin bago ako bumaba. Ayaw ko man tapusin agad ang usapan namin ng bago kong kakilala, kinakailangan na dahil may pasok pa nga ako. Masakit sa loob ko na magpaalam agad sa kanya, wala akong magagawa. Kita ko ang lungkot sa gwapo niyang mukha at ang magandang ngiti sa mapupula niyang labi ay mabilis na napawi. Di ko maitatanggi na iba ang dating niya sa akin. Bukod sa itsura niya na tila bunga ng pagiibigan ng isang pilipino at foreigner, may damdamin na di ko naiwasan.

Naiibang saya ang makikita sa akin ng araw na iyon. Hindi ko alam pero parang naka stapler na yata ang ngiti sa mga labi ko. Ang gaan ng pakiramdam. Ewan ko kung ano ba itong nararamdaman ko, pero isa lang ang sigurado ako, si Thomas ang dahilan ng kakaibang ngiti sa akin ngayon. Parang wala akong problema ng araw na iyon. Ang oras sa pagaaral ay dumaan ng smooth at kaybilis. Siguro talagang di ko na lang napansin. Himalang di ako naiinip.”Sana makasabay ko siya ulit” lihim kong hiling.

Iba ang mga sumunod na araw sa buhay ko. Bawat umaga nananabik ako. Parang kasintahang gustong palaging makapiling ang kanyang minamahal. Hindi ako naiinip na maglakad. Hindi ako nagsasawang maghintay. Alam ko isa sa mga araw ng linggong iyon makikita ko siya ulit. Makakasabay ko siya. Muli kong masisilayan ang maganda niyang ngiti at ang gwapo niyang mukha. Magkukuwentuhan ulit kame at kikilalanin ang isa’t isa. Hindi ako mababagot sa byahe. Hindi ako magmamadali. Hindi ko papansinin ang oras. Lilipas ito sa amin ng di namin namamalayan na kailangan ko na ulit bumaba. Kailangan na ulit magpaalam pero di ako malungkot. Masaya ako dahil nakasama ko siya.

Ngunit, nagkamali ako.. Dumaan ang oras, ang araw, ang linggo, gayundin ang buwan. Walang Thomas akong nasilayan. Wala ang mga ngiti na hinihiling ko sa bawat sandali na muli kong makita. Walang kwentuhan na ninanais kong maulit. Wala siya. Ang lungkot naman. Ang tagal ng oras. Ang tagal ng byahe. Masakit sa tenga ang tunog ng tricycle.Malungkot ang bawat umaga. Gusto ko pa mang umasa, mukhang malabo na. Isang beses lang pala yun kala ko may kasunod pa.

Isang umaga, ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. Masyado akong stress sa pagaaral. Ang daming exam. Ang daming requirements. Ang daming dapat problemahin. Nalimutan ko na si Thomas. Nakaget over na ako sa fever niya. Normal na ulit ako.

Naglalakad ulit ako noon patungo sa sakayan ng may tumigil na tricycle. Ang bilis ng kabog sa dibdib ko. Kakaibang damdamin ang bumalot sa akin.

“hi! anong pangalan mo? ako nga pala si Thomas, anong pangalan mo?” pakilala niyang muli. Aray! nalimutan niya na ako. Nasaktan ako sa kadahilanang inisip ko na iba ako sa tingin niya. Kung nagkataon pala na ibang tao ako, ganoon pa din siya. Ganoon pala talaga siya. Hirap kasi sa atin eh..., nag aasume tayo agad. Pero ayos lang sa akin, mahalaga nakita ko siya ulit. Nakakwentuhan at nakatawanan. Tulad ng gusto ko, nagkakilanlanan kami. Nakwento niya ang ilang mahalagang impormasyon tungkol sa kanya at gayon din ako. Dapat na akong makuntento.

Nang mga sunod na araw himalang palagi ko na siyang nakakasabay. Parang karaniwan na lang sa amin ang magkatabi sa upuan. Hindi na ako naiilang o nahihiyang ipakilala pa ang sarili ko. Lumalim ang aming relasyon, tinuring ko siyang parte ng buhay ko. Tulad ng pagturing ko sa aking mga kapatid,napamahal din siya sa akin.

Iyan ang kwento namin ng batang si Thomas. Anim na taong gulang pa lang siya at nagaaral sa kinder. Makulit at makwento siya. Nakakawala talaga siya ng pagod. Sa mga kwento niyang nakakapagpatawa sa akin, lumilipas ang oras sa amin na parehong nakangiti. Di ko maintindihan, ang gaan ng loob ko sa batang yon. Ang saya niyang kasama. Bata nga naman, walang kaeffort- effort na napapatawa niya ako. Buti pa ang bata, napakanatural lang.

Hindi katulad ng bata ang matanda. Maraming problema. Maraming iniisip. Pinapasan ang mundo sa balikat. Minsan nasabi ko nga sa sarili ko, sana naging bata na lang lagi ako.Hindi ko kinakailangan na maging matanda. Hindi ko makikita ang hirap. Hindi ko papansinin ang problema. Dadaan lang ang mga pagsubok ng hindi ako nasusugatan sa puso. Bata ako kaya masakit na sa akin ang mga sugat sa tuhod na natatamo ko dahil sa paglalaro, na mabilis gumaling. Band aid lang ang katapat. Ibang iba sa matanda na kailangan ang matagal na panahon para makabangon. Dahil ang sugat nila,malayo man sa bituka pero malapit sa baga, dahil ang sugat nila, sugat sa puso. Hindi kailanman matatakpan ng band aid.

Ang aming pagkakaibigan ni Thomas ay nagpapatuloy pa rin. Madalas ko na siyang nakakasabay. Pilyo din ang batang yon. Nung huli ko siyang nakasabay, nagpaalam siya sa akin. Gusto daw niya akong ligawan. Sagot ko sa kanya kung alam na ba niya ang ibig sabihin ng mahal tulad ng palagi niyang sinasabi sa akin. Sabi niya, oo daw. Love niya daw ako. Nakakatawa ininglish lang naman niya. Sana nga ganoon lang kababaw ang ibig sabihin ng pagmamahal. Pero hindi, hindi, hindi. Hinding hindi ganoon kadali. Dahil ang pagibig ay hindi magtatagal ng pagibig nga lang. Kung baga sa produkto, package. Kailangan ang paninindigan, pagtitiwala at katotohanan.

Emo man ang mga nasusulat ko dito, lahat may katotohanan. Hwag kang tumawa lang, tingnan mo ang aral na dapat mong matutunan. Alam kong may pagkakapareho din ang ilan nating mga karanasan. Hindi ko alam kung maikling kwento nga ba itong matuturingan, basta ang alam ko,ang pagbabasa nito’y hindi kawalan. Kwento ito ng buhay ko at ng araw araw na pakikihimok ko sa mundo ng matatanda.Hindi pa man ako nakakarating sa legal na edad,pero madami na akong nalalaman, yun nga lang ang ilan ay mga kalokohan. [hehe]

Ngayon, ano nga ba relasyon ng pamagat sa istorya kong ito? Ganito po kasi iyon...

Naglalakad ako noon sa isang kalye sa may edsa. Parang pag ibig ang trapik, hirap mag move on. Mainit at nakakasunog ng balat ang araw, wala kasi akong pamasahe para tangkilikin ang mga kahong tumatakbo. Tulad ng nakagawian, lumilipad na naman ang isip ko sa kung ano anung mga bagay. Isa na rito ay kung ano nga ba ang ilalagay kong pamagat ng kwento.Maya maya pa nabasa ko ang sign board ng MMDA. Nakalagay dito na bawal ang tao dito. Ayos ang mga paalala nila noh. Gumana ang malikot kong isipan, bakit nga ba bawal ang tao eh ang nasa loob naman ng bawat sasakyan mga tao din naman. Di ba dapat ilagay na lang nila bawal ang maglakad dito?

Tanong lang naman iyon. No big deal. Pero kung ikinonek mo ang title dahil sa nabasa ko habang ako’y naglalakad... Mali ka pa din. Gusto mo ba talaga malaman? Siguro sa mga pagkakataong ito habang binabasa mo ito gusto mo na akong batukan. Kool ka lang..heto na at ikukuwento ko na ang pinagmulan.

Dahil sa pagiisip na iyon, di ko napansin ang isa pang paalala na nagsasabing “Walang Tawiran, Nakamamatay”. Oh yan, related na sa kwento ang pamagat ko ha. Pero sandali lang, ikukuwento ko pa kung ano nangyari sa akin. Di ko napansin ang rumaragasang kahong tumatakbo. Sa bandang huli, nagawa ko ding masambit ang tawag sa kahong iyon....” nang dahil sa dyip”.. At tuluyan ko nang nilisan ang liwanag.. kasabay ng pagkawala ng kabuuang sakit na aking nararamdaman.Teka teka, kung iniisip mo na namatay na ako, puwes, nagkakamali ka. Nakapagsulat pa nga ako nitong kwento eh. Kung ano ang sunod na nangyari, narito ulit. Subay bayan mo.

Nagising na lang ako sa isang maputing lugar na iyon.Ang gaan ng pakiramdam parang wala akong nararamdamang sakit. Kataka takang nasagasaan ako pero wala akong galos. May nakita akong tao. Parang kilala ko siya, ngunit di ko matandaan. nilapitan ko siya para magtanong kung asan ako. Humarap siya sa akin. AHA! sabi ko na nga ba eh... “San pedro...patay na po ba ako?” tanong ko sa kanya... abala siya noon sa pagbuklat ng malaking libro kaya di nya agad ako napansin. Muli kong inulit ang tanong..”San Pedro patay na po ba ako?” . Di pa din niya ako pinapansin. Bakit kaya? natanong ko sa sarili ko. Bingi ba si San Pedro? Hindi naman siguro. Hinayaan ko na lang sya sa ginagawa niya. Naisip ko baka maya maya mapansin na din niya ako.

Ilang oras pa, ha’ay... sa wakas! napansin din ako ni Pedro. Nasaan na kaya ang manok niya? pero hindi yun ang tinanong ko sa kanya. Muli kong tinanong ang tanong ko kanina. Ngunit bakit pag tinatanong ko iyon, tumatalikod siya... Hindi ko siya maintindihan.

Mga ilang oras pa ulit ng siya ay humarap sa akin. Naisip kong ibahin ang tanong. “San Pedro bakit po tumatalikod kayo pag tinatanong ko kung patay na ba ako?” ang sabi ko sa kanya. At muli. tinalikuran na naman niya ako. Ano ba naman itong taong to, hindi ko maintindihan kung bingi ba siya o ano.. kabadtrip!

Sa pangatlong pagkakataon, nilingon niya uli ako. Naiinis man ako sa kanya ginagalang ko pa din siya. Hindi ako sumuko na ulitin muli ang tanong. Hindi din siya sumuko na talikuran ako. Nakakapagtaka na talaga. Ano bang problaema niya? Tagapagbantay ba talaga siya ng langit? Bakit ang bastos niyang kausap?

Matapos ang pang isang daan at isang tanong ko sa kanya, nakasimangot na siyang humarap sa akin. Tila galit na ang tagabantay ng langit. Hala! lagot ako... itapon niya kaya ako sa impyerno? Hwag naman sana... Ayokong magdusa kasama ang mga kampon ng kasamaan at ang hari nilang si satanas. Kaya nanahimik na lang ako. Lumingon man siya sa akin, hindi na ako nagtatanong.

“ Ha’ay sa wakas....tumigil ka din” ang sabi niya sa akin. May pagtatakang lumingon ako sa kanya. Gusto kong magtanong subalit natatakot akong magsalita dahil baka talikuran na naman niya ako.

Bakas siguro sa mukha ko ang pagkalito kaya naawa siya at sinabi kung saan ako naroroon. “ Nandito ka sa ospital miss” natatawa at tila naiinis niyang sabi. Hindi ako nakapagsalita kaya itinuloy na niya ang pagkukuwento. “Kung nagtataka ka kung bakit di kita sinasagot kanina... siguro alam mo na din ang sagot ngayon.Hindi ako si San Pedro.Ako ang naatasang magbantay sayo dito. Wala pa kasi yung nanay mo bumili ng pagkain mo dahil tiyak daw gutom ka paggising mo” paliwanag niya sa akin. Napahiya man ako, natawa na lang ako ng palihim. Naitanong ko na lang sa kanya kung ano yung hawak niyang libro kanina. “ ah.. yung libro ba?Nursing student kasi ako.. kaya ganoon kakakapal ang libro na binabasa ko” nakangiting sagot niya.At maliwanag na sa akin ang lahat.

At bilang moral lesson nitong maikling kwento ko...

“Hwag kayong magiisip ng title ng kwento niyo pagnaglalakad kayo sa Edsa.. dahil baka pagkamalan niyo ding sugo ng langit ang nurse sa ospital. At isa pang paalala, laging pansinin ang sign board ng mmda na....WALANG TAWIRAN; NAKAMAMATAY!”

CREDITS TO :

MS. ANN JENINA MARANAN

3-D ABE

haha... my cousin....